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JuliaSweeney_2006-_神啊，饶了我把_
On September 10, the morning of my seventh birthday, [00:12]
I came downstairs to the kitchen, where my mother was washing the dishes and my father was reading the paper or something, and I sort of presented myself to them in the doorway , and they said, "Hey, happy birthday!" And I said, "I'm seven." [00:15]
downstairs:adv.在楼下;往楼下;adj.楼下的;n.楼下(尤指地面的一层); doorway:n.门口;途径;
And my father smiled and said, "Well, you know what that means, don't you?" [00:30]
And I said, "Yeah, that I'm going to have a party and a cake and get a lot of presents?" [00:34]
And my dad said, "Well, yes. [00:39]
But more importantly, being seven means that you've reached the age of reason, and you're now capable of committing any and all sins against God and man." [00:41]
capable:adj.能干的,能胜任的;有才华的; committing:v.做出;犯罪或错等;自杀;承诺,保证;(commit的现在分词) sins:n.罪恶;罪行;过错;过失;恶行;v.犯戒律;犯过失;(sin的第三人称单数和复数)
(Laughter) [00:50]
Now, I had heard this phrase, "age of reason," before. [00:53]
Sister Mary Kevin had been bandying it about my second-grade class at school. [00:56]
bandying:v.议论;散布;吵嘴;打来打去;传播;互换;(bandy的现在分词) second-grade:adj.二流;
But when she said it, the phrase seemed all caught up in the excitement of preparations for our first communion and our first confession , and everybody knew that was really all about the white dress and the white veil . [01:00]
excitement:n.兴奋;刺激;令人兴奋的事物; communion:n.共享;恳谈;宗教团体;圣餐仪式; confession:n.忏悔,告解;供认; veil:n.面纱;面罩;遮蔽物;托词;v.遮蔽;掩饰;以面纱遮掩;用帷幕分隔;
And anyway, I hadn't really paid all that much attention to that phrase, "age of reason." [01:11]
So, I said, "Yeah, yeah, age of reason. What does that mean again?" [01:15]
And my dad said, "Well, we believe, in the Catholic Church, that God knows that little kids don't know the difference between right and wrong, but when you're seven, you're old enough to know better. [01:19]
Catholic:adj.天主教的;宽宏大量的;n.天主教徒;罗马天主教;
So, you've grown up and reached the age of reason, and now God will start keeping notes on you, and begin your permanent record." [01:30]
permanent:adj.永久的,永恒的;n.烫发;
(Laughter) [01:37]
And I said, "Oh ... [01:38]
Wait a minute. [01:42]
You mean all that time, up till today, all that time I was so good, God didn't notice it?" [01:44]
And my mom said, "Well, I noticed it." [01:51]
(Laughter) [01:54]
And I thought, "How could I not have known this before? [01:56]
How could it not have sunk in when they'd been telling me? [01:58]
All that being good and no real credit for it. [02:01]
And worst of all, how could I not have realized this very important information until the very day that it was basically useless to me?" [02:03]
basically:adv.主要地,基本上;
So I said, "Well, Mom and Dad, what about Santa Claus ? [02:10]
Santa Claus:n.身着红衣;圣诞老人;
I mean, Santa Claus knows if you're naughty or nice, right?" [02:13]
naughty:adj.顽皮的;淘气的;不听话的;
And my dad said, "Yeah, but, honey, [02:17]
I think that's technically just between Thanksgiving and Christmas." [02:19]
And my mother said, "Oh, Bob, stop it. Let's just tell her. I mean, she's seven. [02:22]
Julie, there is no Santa Claus." [02:26]
(Laughter) [02:29]
Now, this was actually not that upsetting to me. [02:32]
upsetting:adj.令人心烦意乱的; v.使烦恼; (upset的现在分词)
My parents had this whole elaborate story about Santa Claus: how they had talked to Santa Claus himself and agreed that instead of Santa delivering our presents over the night of Christmas Eve , [02:35]
elaborate:adj.精心制作的;详尽的;煞费苦心的;v.精心制作;详细描述;变复杂; Christmas Eve:圣诞夜,平安夜
like he did for every other family who got to open their surprises first thing Christmas morning, our family would give Santa more time. [02:45]
Santa would come to our house while we were at nine o'clock high mass on Christmas morning, but only if all of us kids did not make a fuss . [02:51]
mass:n.块,团; adj.群众的,民众的; v.聚集起来,聚集; fuss:n.大惊小怪; v.瞎忙一气; (为小事)烦恼;
Which made me very suspicious . [02:59]
suspicious:adj.可疑的;怀疑的;多疑的;
It was pretty obvious that it was really our parents giving us the presents. [03:02]
obvious:adj.明显的;显著的;平淡无奇的;
I mean, my dad had a very distinctive wrapping style, and my mother's handwriting was so close to Santa's. [03:06]
distinctive:adj.独特的;特别的;有特色的; wrapping:n.包装材料;包装纸;v.包,裹(礼物等);用…包裹;(wrap的现在分词)
(Laughter) [03:11]
Plus, why would Santa save time by having to loop back to our house after he'd gone to everybody else's? [03:12]
loop:n.循环;回路;环路;圈;v.使成环;使绕成圈;成环形移动;
There was only one obvious conclusion to reach from this mountain of evidence : our family was too strange and weird for even Santa Claus to come visit, [03:18]
conclusion:n.结论;结局;推论; evidence:n.证据,证明;迹象;明显;v.证明; weird:adj.奇怪的;奇异的;离奇的;n.命运;宿命;命运女神;
and my poor parents were trying to protect us from the embarrassment , this humiliation of rejection by Santa, who was jolly -- but let's face it, he was also very judgmental . [03:27]
embarrassment:n.窘迫,难堪;使人为难的人或事物;拮据; humiliation:n.丢脸,耻辱;蒙羞;谦卑; rejection:n.抛弃;拒绝;被抛弃的东西;盖帽; jolly:adj.愉快的;高兴的;adv.很;非常;v.甘愿或渴望做某事;怂恿;n.旅游;游玩 judgmental:adj.审判的;
So to find out that there was no Santa Claus at all was actually sort of a relief . [03:37]
relief:n.救济;减轻,解除;安慰;浮雕;
I left the kitchen not really in shock about Santa, but rather, I was just dumbfounded about how I could have missed this whole age of reason thing. [03:42]
dumbfounded:adj.目瞪口呆的,惊呆的;v.使…慌乱;使…慌乱(dumbfound的过去分词);
It was too late for me, but maybe I could help someone else, someone who could use the information. [03:49]
They had to fit two criteria : they had to be old enough to be able to understand the whole concept of the age of reason, and not yet seven. [03:55]
criteria:n.标准,条件(criterion的复数);
The answer was clear: my brother Bill. He was six. [04:03]
Well, I finally found Bill about a block away from our house at this public school playground. [04:06]
finally:adv.终于;最终;(用于列举)最后;彻底地; public school:(美国和苏格兰的初等或中等的)公立中小学;寄宿学校;
It was a Saturday, and he was all by himself, just kicking a ball against the side of a wall. [04:10]
I ran up to him and said, "Bill! [04:15]
I just realized that the age of reason starts when you turn seven, and then you're capable of committing any and all sins against God and man." [04:17]
And Bill said, "So?" [04:23]
And I said, "So, you're six. [04:25]
You have a whole year to do anything you want to and God won't notice it." [04:27]
And he said, "So?" [04:31]
And I said, "So? So everything!" [04:33]
And I turned to run. I was so angry with him. [04:37]
But when I got to the top of the steps, [04:40]
I turned around dramatically and said, "Oh, by the way , Bill -- there is no Santa Claus." [04:42]
dramatically:adv.戏剧地;引人注目地;adv.显著地,剧烈地; by the way:顺便说一下;
(Laughter) [04:47]
Now, I didn't know it at the time, but I really wasn't turning seven on September 10th. [04:49]
For my 13th birthday, [04:54]
I planned a slumber party with all of my girlfriends, but a couple of weeks beforehand my mother took me aside and said, "I need to speak to you privately . [04:55]
slumber party:n.谈天会; beforehand:adv.事先;预先;adj.提前的;预先准备好的; privately:adv.私下地;秘密地;
September 10th is not your birthday. It's October 10th." [05:05]
And I said, "What?" [05:09]
(Laughter) [05:10]
And she said ... [05:11]
(Laughter) [05:13]
'"Listen. The cut-off date to start kindergarten was September 15th." [05:14]
cut-off:n.截止;定点;界限;adj.毛边短裤的; kindergarten:n.幼儿园;
(Laughter) [05:20]
'"So I told them that your birthday was September 10th, and then I wasn't sure that you weren't just going to go blab it all over the place, so I started to tell you your birthday was September 10th. [05:21]
blab:vt.泄漏;vi.胡扯;n.泄密者;多嘴的人;
But, Julie, you were so ready to start school, honey. You were so ready." [05:31]
I thought about it, and when I was four, [05:36]
I was already the oldest of four children, and my mother even had another child to come, so what I think she -- understandably -- really meant was that she was so ready, she was so ready. [05:38]
understandably:adv.可理解地;
Then she said, "Don't worry, Julie. [05:47]
Every year on October 10th, when it was your birthday but you didn't realize it, [05:48]
I made sure that you ate a piece of cake that day." [05:53]
a piece of cake:轻松的事;
(Laughter) [05:56]
Which was comforting, but troubling. [05:59]
My mother had been celebrating my birthday with me, without me. [06:01]
(Laughter) [06:05]
What was so upsetting about this new piece of information was not that I had to change the date of my slumber party with all of my girlfriends. [06:06]
What was most upsetting was that this meant I was not a Virgo. [06:13]
I had a huge Virgo poster in my bedroom. [06:17]
poster:n.海报;巨幅装饰画;发布消息的人;
And I read my horoscope every single day, and it was so totally me. [06:20]
horoscope:n.占星术;星象;十二宫图;
(Laughter) [06:25]
And this meant that I was a Libra ? [06:27]
Libra:n.天秤座;磅(重量单位);
So, I took the bus downtown to get the new Libra poster. [06:29]
downtown:n.市区;闹市区;adv.在市区;在热闹街上;到闹市区;adj.闹市区的;
The Virgo poster is a picture of a beautiful woman with long hair, sort of lounging by some water, but the Libra poster is just a huge scale . [06:33]
lounging:v.懒洋洋地站(或坐、躺)着;(lounge的现在分词) scale:n.规模;比例;鳞;刻度;天平;数值范围;v.衡量;攀登;剥落;生水垢;
This was around the time that I started filling out physically, and I was filling out a lot more than a lot of the other girls, and frankly, the whole idea that my astrological sign was a scale just seemed ominous and depressing . [06:40]
astrological:adj.占星的;占星学的,占星术的; ominous:adj.预兆的;不吉利的; depressing:adj.令人抑郁的; v.使沮丧; (depress的现在分词)
(Laughter) [06:53]
But I got the new Libra poster, and I started to read my new Libra horoscope, and I was astonished to find that it was also totally me. [06:56]
astonished:adj.吃惊的;
(Laughter) [07:05]
It wasn't until years later, looking back on this whole age-of-reason, change-of-birthday thing, that it dawned on me: [07:07]
dawned:n.天亮了;v.破晓(dawn的过去分词);
I wasn't turning seven when I thought I turned seven. [07:13]
I had a whole other month to do anything I wanted to before God started keeping tabs on me. [07:15]
tabs:n.制表符; v.命名;
Oh, life can be so cruel. [07:21]
One day, two Mormon missionaries came to my door. [07:25]
Mormon:n.摩门教徒;一夫多妻主义者;adj.摩门教的;摩门教徒的; missionaries:n.传教士;工作人员(missionary的复数);
Now, I just live off a main thoroughfare in Los Angeles, and my block is -- well, it's a natural beginning for people who are peddling things door to door. [07:29]
thoroughfare:n.大道,通路; peddling:n.商贩;v.挨户销售;兜售,宣传;(peddle的现在分词)
Sometimes I get little old ladies from the Seventh Day Adventist Church showing me these cartoon pictures of heaven. [07:36]
Adventist:n.基督复临论者,耶稣再生论者;
And sometimes I get teenagers who promise me that they won't join a gang and just start robbing people, if I only buy some magazine subscriptions from them. [07:42]
gang:n.一群; v.(英)去; subscriptions:n.订阅,订购;定期捐款;会员费;用户费;集体资助;(subscription的复数)
So normally , I just ignore the doorbell , but on this day, I answered. [07:50]
normally:adv.正常地;通常地,一般地; ignore:v.驳回诉讼;忽视;不理睬; doorbell:n.门铃;
And there stood two boys, each about 19, in white, starched short-sleeved shirts, and they had little name tags that identified them as official representatives [07:55]
starched:adj.上过浆的; v.把(衣服、床单等)浆一浆(starch的过去分词和过去式) tags:n.标签; v.附加; identified:v.确认;认出;找到;发现;说明身份;(identify的过去式和过去分词) official:adj.官方的;正式的;公务的;n.官员;公务员;高级职员; representatives:n.代表;众议院(representative的复数形式);
of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints , and they said they had a message for me, from God. [08:04]
Jesus:int.上帝啊:天哪:n.耶稣:耶稣基督: Latter-day:adj.近代的;现代的;当今的; Saints:n.圣徒(saint的复数); v.把…尊为圣人;
I said, "A message for me? From God?" And they said, "Yes." [08:10]
Now, I was raised in the Pacific Northwest , around a lot of Church of Latter-day Saints people and, you know, [08:15]
Northwest:adj.西北的;来自西北的;n.西北;adv.在西北;来自西北;
I've worked with them and even dated them, but I never really knew the doctrine , or what they said to people when they were out on a mission, and I guess I was sort of curious , so I said, "Well, please, come in." [08:21]
doctrine:n.主义;学说;教义;信条; curious:adj.好奇的,有求知欲的;古怪的;爱挑剔的;
And they looked really happy, because I don't think this happens to them all that often. [08:31]
(Laughter) [08:35]
And I sat them down, and I got them glasses of water -- [08:36]
Ok, I got it, I got it. [08:50]
I got them glasses of water. [08:51]
Don't touch my hair, that's the thing. [08:53]
(Laughter) [08:54]
You can't put a video of myself in front of me and expect me not to fix my hair. [08:57]
(Laughter) [09:04]
So I sat them down and I got them glasses of water, and after niceties , they said, "Do you believe that God loves you with all his heart?" [09:08]
niceties:n.精密;美好;细节;拘泥细节;
And I thought, "Well, of course I believe in God, but you know, I don't like that word 'heart,' because it anthropomorphizes God, and I don't like the word, 'his,' either, because that sexualizes God." [09:15]
anthropomorphizes:v.赋与(…)人性[人形]; (anthropomorphize的第三人称单数); sexualizes:vt.使有性特征;使有性别;
But I didn't want to argue semantics with these boys, so after a very long, uncomfortable pause, I said, "Yes, yes, I do. I feel very loved." [09:28]
semantics:n.[语]语义学;语义论;
And they looked at each other and smiled, like that was the right answer. [09:38]
And then they said, "Do you believe that we're all brothers and sisters on this planet?" [09:42]
And I said, "Yes, I do." [09:47]
And I was so relieved that it was a question I could answer so quickly. [09:48]
relieved:adj.释然的; v.缓解;
And they said, "Well, then we have a story to tell you." [09:51]
And they told me this story all about this guy named Lehi, who lived in Jerusalem in 600 BC. [09:54]
Jerusalem:n.耶路撒冷(以色列首都);
Now, apparently in Jerusalem in 600 BC, everyone was completely bad and evil . [10:00]
apparently:adv.显然地;似乎,表面上; evil:adj.邪恶的;不幸的;有害的;讨厌的;n.罪恶,邪恶;不幸;
Every single one of them: man, woman, child, infant , fetus . [10:05]
infant:n.婴儿;幼儿;未成年人;adj.婴儿的;幼稚的;初期的;未成年的; fetus:n.胎儿,胎;
And God came to Lehi and said to him, "Put your family on a boat and I will lead you out of here." [10:09]
And God did lead them. [10:14]
He led them to America. [10:16]
I said, "America? [10:19]
(Laughter) [10:20]
From Jerusalem to America by boat in 600 BC?" [10:22]
And they said, "Yes." [10:27]
(Laughter) [10:29]
Then they told me how Lehi and his descendants reproduced and reproduced, and over the course of 600 years, there were two great races of them, the Nephites and the Lamanites, [10:30]
descendants:n.后裔;后代;子孙;派生物;(descendant的复数) reproduced:v.重现(reproduce的过去分词);再生产;生育;adj.再生的;重制的;
and the Nephites were totally good -- each and every one of them -- and the Lamanites were totally bad and evil -- every single one of them just bad to the bone. [10:39]
Then, after Jesus died on the cross for our sins, on his way up to heaven, he stopped by America and visited the Nephites. [10:47]
(Laughter) [10:54]
And he told them that if they all remained totally, totally good -- each and every one of them -- they would win the war against the evil Lamanites. [10:55]
But apparently somebody blew it, because the Lamanites were able to kill all the Nephites. [11:03]
All but one guy, this guy named Mormon, who managed to survive by hiding in the woods. [11:08]
And he made sure this whole story was written down in reformed Egyptian hieroglyphics chiseled onto gold plates, which he then buried near Palmyra, New York. [11:13]
reformed:adj.改革过的;新教的;v.改革(reform的过去分词和过去式); hieroglyphics:n.[语]象形文字;难以辨认或理解的文字(hieroglyphic的复数形式); chiseled:adj.轮廓分明的;凿刻的;v.镌刻;用凿子刻(chisel的过去分词);
(Laughter) [11:23]
Well, I was just on the edge of my seat. [11:29]
on the edge of:adv.几乎;濒于;在…边缘;
(Laughter) [11:32]
I said, "What happened to the Lamanites?" [11:35]
And they said, "Well, they became our Native Americans, here in the U.S." [11:38]
Native:adj.本国的;土著的;天然的;与生俱来的;天赋的;n.本地人;土产;当地居民;
And I said, "So, you believe the Native Americans are descended from a people who were totally evil?" [11:42]
descended:adj.出身于...的;从一个祖先传下来的;
And they said, "Yes." [11:47]
Then they told me how this guy named Joseph Smith found those buried gold plates right in his backyard , and he also found this magic stone back there that he put into his hat and then buried his face into, and this allowed him to translate the gold plates from the reformed Egyptian into English. [11:49]
Joseph:n.连帽大氅; backyard:n.后院;后庭; translate:v.翻译;被翻译;被译成;(使)转变;
Well, at this point I just wanted to give these two boys some advice about their pitch . [12:06]
pitch:v.抛:用力扔:针对:触地:n.场地:程度:力度:推销的话:纵摇:
(Laughter) [12:11]
I wanted to say -- [12:14]
(Applause) [12:15]
'"Ok, don't start with this story." [12:17]
(Laughter) [12:19]
I mean, even the Scientologists know to start with a personality test before they start -- [12:21]
personality:n.性格;个性;人格;魅力;气质;名人;特色;
(Applause) [12:26]
telling people all about Xenu, the evil intergalactic overlord . [12:28]
intergalactic:adj.星系间的;银河间的; overlord:n.领主,庄主,大王;
Then, they said, "Do you believe that God speaks to us through his righteous prophets ?" [12:33]
righteous:adj.正义的;正直的;公正的; prophets:n.先知;提倡者(prophet的复数形式);
And I said, "No, I don't," [12:37]
because I was sort of upset about this Lamanite story and this crazy gold plate story, but the truth was, I hadn't really thought this through, so I backpedaled a little and I said, "Well, what exactly do you mean by 'righteous'? [12:38]
gold plate:vt.镀金;
And what do you mean by prophets? Like, could the prophets be women?" [12:50]
what do you mean by:你说…是什么意思？;
And they said, "No." And I said, "Why?" [12:54]
And they said, "Well, it's because God gave women a gift that is so spectacular , it is so wonderful, that the only gift he had left over to give men was the gift of prophecy ." [12:57]
spectacular:adj.壮观的;壮丽的;令人惊叹的;n.壮观的场面;精彩的表演; prophecy:n.预言;预言书;预言能力;
What is this wonderful gift God gave women, I wondered? [13:10]
Maybe their greater ability to cooperate and adapt ? [13:14]
cooperate:v.合作;配合;协作;结合; adapt:vt.使适应;改编;vi.适应;
(Laughter) [13:17]
Women's longer lifespan ? [13:18]
lifespan:n.寿命;预期生命期限;预期使用期限;
The fact that women tend to be much less violent than men? [13:19]
violent:adj.暴力的;猛烈的;
But no -- it wasn't any of these gifts. [13:23]
They said, "Well, it's her ability to bear children." [13:25]
I said, "Oh, come on. [13:28]
I mean, even if women tried to have a baby every single year from the time they were 15 to the time they were 45, assuming they didn't die from exhaustion , [13:29]
assuming:conj.假设…为真; adj.傲慢的; v.假定; (assume的现在分词) exhaustion:n.枯竭;耗尽;精疲力竭;
it still seems like some women would have some time left over to hear the word of God." [13:37]
And they said, "No." [13:42]
(Laughter) [13:44]
Well, then they didn't look so fresh-faced and cute to me any more, but they had more to say. [13:47]
fresh-faced:面带稚气的;
They said, "Well, we also believe that if you're a Mormon, and if you're in good standing with the church, when you die, you get to go to heaven and be with your family for all eternity ." [13:51]
eternity:n.来世,来生;不朽;永世;
And I said, "Oh, dear. [14:01]
(Laughter) [14:03]
That wouldn't be such a good incentive for me." [14:10]
incentive:n.动机;刺激;adj.激励的;刺激的;
(Laughter) [14:12]
And they said, "Oh. [14:13]
(Laughter) [14:15]
Hey! Well, we also believe that when you go to heaven, you get your body restored to you in its best original state. [14:16]
restored:adj.精力充沛的;精力恢复的;v.修复;恢复健康;(restore的过去分词和过去式) original:n.原件;原作;原物;原型;adj.原始的;最初的;独创的;新颖的;
Like, if you'd lost a leg, well, you get it back. [14:22]
Or, if you'd gone blind, you could see." [14:25]
I said, "Oh. Now, I don't have a uterus , because I had cancer a few years ago. [14:27]
uterus:n.[解剖]子宫; cancer:n.癌症;恶性肿瘤;
So does this mean that if I went to heaven, [14:32]
I would get my old uterus back?" [14:34]
And they said, "Sure." [14:36]
And I said, "I don't want it back. I'm happy without it." Gosh. [14:38]
What if you had a nose job and you liked it? [14:44]
What if:如果…怎么办? nose job:n.(非正式)鼻子整形手术;
(Laughter) [14:47]
Would God force you to get your old nose back? [14:49]
Then they gave me this Book of Mormon, told me to read this chapter and that chapter, and said they'd come back and check in on me, and I think I said something like, "Please don't hurry," [14:52]
or maybe just, "Please don't," and they were gone. [15:01]
Ok, so I initially felt really superior to these boys, and smug in my more conventional faith . [15:04]
initially:adv.最初,首先;开头; superior:n.上级;上司;adj.(在品质上)更好的;占优势的;更胜一筹的; smug:adj.自鸣得意的;自以为是的;整洁的;n.书呆子;自命不凡的家伙; conventional:adj.符合习俗的,传统的;常见的;惯例的; faith:n.信心;信任;宗教信仰;
But then the more I thought about it, the more I had to be honest with myself. [15:10]
If someone came to my door and I was hearing Catholic theology and dogma for the very first time, and they said, "We believe that God impregnated a very young girl without the use of intercourse , and the fact that she was a virgin is maniacally important to us." [15:14]
theology:n.神学;宗教体系; dogma:n.教条,教理;武断的意见; impregnated:adj.浸渍的;浸染的;v.浸渍(impregnate的过去分词); intercourse:n.性交;交往;交流; virgin:n.处女;童男;无…经验的人;新手;
(Laughter) [15:27]
'"And she had a baby, and that's the son of God," [15:28]
I mean, I would think that's equally ridiculous . [15:31]
ridiculous:adj.可笑的;荒谬的;
I'm just so used to that story. [15:34]
(Laughter) [15:35]
So, I couldn't let myself feel condescending towards these boys. [15:37]
condescending:adj.居高临下的; v.屈尊; (condescend的现在分词)
But the question they asked me when they first arrived really stuck in my head: [15:40]
Did I believe that God loved me with all his heart? [15:44]
Because I wasn't exactly sure how I felt about that question. [15:48]
Now, if they had asked me, "Do you feel that God loves you with all his heart?" [15:51]
Well, that would have been much different, I think I would have instantly answered, "Yes, yes, I feel it all the time. [15:56]
I feel God's love when I'm hurt and confused , and I feel consoled and cared for. [16:01]
confused:adj.困惑的; v.使糊涂; (confuse的过去分词和过去式) consoled:n.[计]控制台;[电]操纵台;vt.安慰;慰藉;
I take shelter in God's love when I don't understand why tragedy hits, and I feel God's love when I look with gratitude at all the beauty I see." [16:07]
take shelter:寻求庇护;避难; tragedy:n.悲惨的事;不幸;灾难;悲剧作品; gratitude:n.感谢(的心情);感激;
But since they asked me that question with the word "believe" in it, somehow it was all different, because I wasn't exactly sure if I believed what I so clearly felt. [16:15]
somehow:adv.以某种方法;莫名其妙地;